LordofMoonSpawn

You would rather love someone who doesn't give a shit about you than someone who would burn the world for you.

And that is what kills me.

Today you messaged me, and my heart finally calmed down a bit. I know you're just being friendly, but I can't be anything but honest in my reaction. And I know that the possibility is huge that you will think numerous times in the future before you message me again, but still.

If this is the love I feel, then it will be the love I show you. I am nothing if not a 100% truthful.

Ik denk echt niet dat er een moment is in me leven momenteel waarbij ik niet over je denk.

Standing at the edge, Looking into the void, I can hear it calling, And I can feel the longing.

I wonder what it would feel like to not feel any pain? And I wonder what it would feel like to drift, and to exist in non-existence.

Standing at the edge, I wonder if I will have the courage to leap.

When I leap, will the darkness embrace me?

I hope it will, for if it doesn't, I may just die for eternity.

As I am dying now.

If the universe can convey the feelings I have for you, I would wish it to convey how much I love you.

I would burn the world for you, my love.

The following are the sole reasons why I haven't committed suicide yet.

1. My dogs would mis me.
2. My dad and my sister would be sad.
3. I am afraid of death.
4. I won't be able to see you again.
5. I still have hope that you might someday say “yes”.

Foolish maybe, but it is the truth.

You say you don't love me. But I love you.

You say that you don't like me. But I love you.

You say that you aren't ready. But I love you.

You say that you are broken. But I still love you.

Three days since we last spoke. I can still feel the helplessness that I felt when I called you and couldn't say anything. Helplessness may now be the single most accurate word one could use to describe me.

When they look at me, all they see is hope. Not knowing that it all is a facade I would readily give up for the one that resides in my heart.