The feeling of anxiousness has been steadily building for the past 2 days.

October 7, 2019

The feeling of anxiousness has been steadily building for the past 2 days. And this morning I can feel it constricting my airways.

I want to talk to her, but I don't want to give her a reason to say “no” again. As much as I feel like that has now become inevitable, I know that I will not be able to process it; I feel like I am at the precipice of collapse. And if I do collapse, I will not be able to recover.